Jake gave me a Keel's Simple Diary for Christmas and Kyle and I have been opening to random pages and filling it out for fun, and if you're not familiar with what this is, I will explain:
(there's an insert in the front cover when you receive your own Keel's)
"Congratulations. You got Simple Diary in RED.
This could mean that you
a) like cashmere. b) are quick. c) dislike loud noise.
WHAT YOU MIGHT NEED RIGHT NOW:
1. no medication
2. a nice comedy
3. the business
4. a pear, a lemon, and a leaf
5. friends with balls
6. perfect pasta
7. visit Mount Josephine
8. a decoder ring
9. crack of the whip
10. an empty living room
Why is the moon not always round? Why is the night not long enough? Why is the owl not a friend? Why do the stars not kiss our hand?
What deserves to be posted with a thumbtack? _______________
In your own experience, red often
a) brings joy. b) lets it happen. c) scares the bull.
BEGIN
hugging
not forgetting to whistle
a little earlier
AVOID
the condition
talking about those things
a sandcastle
Many people run away every weekend, most of them justified. Some reflect too much, but you may not reflect enough. You are intelligent, able to influence people and are valued at home. An enthusiastic achiever, you are invigorated by country estates. You are much of a materialist, but your life certainly isn't cheap."
This is one of the most interesting gifts I have ever been given and I have already smiled tons over it in the few times I have used it. They go on to explain that the Simple Diary is awesome because people don't ever keep a diary even though they say they will...
The past month or so has been so super busy and it is only going to get busier for me (us). I have weekly trips off island to get my grill sorted out, I'm still working part-time at the Haul Over, I have to arrange moving off of Nantucket and to Florida, and somewhere during all of this I also have to find time to appreciate the time we have left on this special little island.
I know in the past I have moaned, groaned, grumbled and complained about the woes of living on Nantucket, but honestly, this place is a little gem. If only it were warm year round - it really would be like a little oasis.
For awhile I was thinking about and wanting to write a LONG post about transparency. I haven't started it yet because I'm not done thinking about it. I can't decide if transparency is a good thing or a bad thing. I was raised and taught that "honesty is always the best policy" and that being honest almost never turns out to be a bad thing. Over the course of the past few years, I have learned that honesty can sometimes hurt you, and those around you. I have also learned that not being transparent can also hurt you and those around you. What is the difference though? Are transparency and honesty the same thing? I don't think so... I think honesty is not lying and telling the truth all the time - doing the right thing all the time because it's always the right thing to do. I think transparency is a sense of 'openness' and 'togetherness' that you share in interpersonal relationships. For the most part, I think that my mom and dad were always transparent and honest with my brothers and I, and we shared that transparency and openness with the rest of our extended family. As I have grown into my own adult, I have continued to be transparent and honest... but I've come to realize that not everyone else is, and it bothers me. I guess what's troubling me is that I expect other people to be transparent with me, if I am transparent with them. I guess you need to learn who to be transparent with, obviously, but I always expect to be treated the way I treat others... which leads me to my next thought for tonights post...
I was working out tonight and I came across an article that was written by a woman who was 29 years old. The article was actually about when she was 27, after a long and overly stressful day, she came home from a bombed date to find a letter in the mail that she had written to herself when she was 17 years old and mailed to her from her high school teacher. The letter was written to herself 10 years from now, and encompassed where she expected to be and advice she would give her future self. It got me thinking, and I've thought about this before, about what my past self would say to my present self if they crossed paths again. Back in high school I had this math teacher who swore he could prove time travel and it blew my mind... I was so interested in this guy, Mr. Prescia, I'll never forget him, especially since I blew his mind by sitting in his class - and he had taught my mom 25 years earlier, and thought he was in his own time warp when he laid eyes on me. I digress. (but I know any of my Sayville friends reading this post will get a kick out of thinking about Mr. Prescia) Not too long ago I laughed and thought about how Eileen Korinek would probably think Eileen Pitcock is a pretty lame person... but then I thought about it reversed, and Eileen Pitcock would probably smack Eileen Korinek so hard for being ass-backward to the world, and tell her to tighten up. I floundered for awhile, and I know it, and what's worse is I knew it then, too! I was so free though, and while I loved that freedom and the fact that I simply did what I wanted, when I wanted, with no regard to anyone else, I am glad that is not the person I am today. You never want to look back on your life and have regrets, and say things like "would have, should have, could have" but we all know we can. Sometimes I like to think about how different my life would be had I stayed at Eckerd, or had I gone to SUNY Maritime like I was supposed to... had I NOT gone back to FAU after my parents made me come home and go to community college for a semester (I wouldn't have met Kyle!). Many people often ask my why I joined the Coast Guard and while usually I answer smartly, "there's nothing better to do!" the honest answer is that I ALWAYS wanted to join the Coast Guard, I chickened out of going to Maritime College because I was scared of being regimented... not that's funny! Really... I wanted to join the Coast Guard after college, because I wanted to become an officer, and I really wanted to go to college to be the first person in my family to actually do it and get a degree... and while that hasn't happened yet, I still have plans to continue working towards it and eventually put in a package to go OCS... which will really be one of the only things in my entire life I've ever planned on doing, committed to, and actually did (aside from marrying Kyle, of course!).
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