I didn't get a letter from Kyle this week - pretty bummed about that. It's like I had to pay for talking to him earlier in the week so I didn't get a letter. No, it's not... I just made that justification up.
This week, Junior's usual behaviors did not change, which I am really pretty bummed about especially since I've been walking him in the evenings (and freezing my buns off!!) and not filling his water bowl up all the way, he wet his bed 3 times and had other stomach issues. I'm kind of at a loss with him and just wish I had Kyle to help me deal with or make a decision on what to do about him. I have about zero tolerance/LOVE for this animal at this point so he's pretty much just a nuisance to me and we're just coexisting in the same household. I know this probably makes me sound like the worst human being in the world but this has been ongoing for 3 years, has cost me soooo much money and patience, and I'm just kind of over it... I don't know what FURTHER to do, or if I just need to accept that the dog will pee his bed, bark in the middle of the night, have diarrhea so bad that I have to clean up after him and wipe his butt when he comes in, pay over $200/mo for medications, or have him licking himself to bloody sores... ugh. It would be easier for me if I could see a difference in his demeanor when we make changes but there is none... he's just not a happy dog, and taking him to the vet and changing meds, food, etc. every month or so has not proven to be successful so far.
On the other hand....
I took a week off of working out and taking my supplements (I even at two cinnamon buns last week!! weeeee) because I got kind of burnt out, the scale wasn't moving, and the muscles in between my shoulder blades were SOOOO sore it was actually waking me up at night (along with Junior's barking). I started back up this week and FINALLY broke my plateau on the scale, and I'm starting to see some positive results again - THANK GOODNESS. I still have 7lbs until the Coast Guard doesn't classify me as 'overweight' (but I have until April to lose that), 12lbs to my post-bootcamp weight, and 22lbs to my GOAL weight (which seems like a lot but, trust me, it's there to lose)... this has been a journey and lifestyle change, it's amazing how as you start to get older - even at the ripe age of 25, you notice how your body changes and you can't do/eat the same things you used to and expect the same results, I guess that's why it's the definition of insanity.
(Here's a 3 week progress pic)
Yeah, also.... my tattoo is crooked because I got it when I was 7lbs heavier than I am right now... guess it will forever be a good indicator for when I need to start working out again...
Tomorrow, Saturday, I will get to actually TALK to Kyle, not just a 5 minute teaser, he has his on-base liberty and will be able to actually call home and talk to me for however long he wants to. Bummer that I'll be at work, but I have flexibility throughout the day and should have no problem taking a phone call.
I am heading to NY in a week, to schlep the animals to my mom's house and SURPRISE Kyle at the gates of the Training Center next Saturday when he has is off-base liberty. My mom and brothers came down for mine and I was able to go get my eyebrows and nails done and we had a nice lunch... I really appreciated it and even though Kyle told me not to come, I'm going to do it anyway -- mind you, he also said he didn't want to bring pictures with him to boot-camp and the second letter I got from him he was asking for pictures.
I know I've already wrote about this but I can't wait for this chapter to be over with... however, today I started painting again. I asked my mom for paint supplies for Christmas (and as usual she came through!! thanks, mom!) but haven't "had time" to sit down and paint. Yesterday, after doing literally nothing all day but counting down the minutes til my next meal or workout, I thought to myself, "I need a hobby". DUH!!!! I have a hobby, I love painting! I am so excited to post pics of my latest and greatest! At first I thought to myself, "who should I paint a picture for!?" DUH AGAIN!! MYSELF!!
