Yin and Yang

Well, I guess at this point I feel obligated to write an appreciation post.  First off, I'd like to apologize for being a little out of line about my poor pooch Junior.  He is helpless, unhappy, and I'm trying really hard to do what's best for him (you will be happy to know while I had to take Pippin to the vet today I discussed - once again - Junior's skin situation and his barking in the middle of the night, etc., with our awesome vet and she gave me a new medication to try for Junior - low and behold I left paying another $300 vet bill when all I went for was a $30 shot for Pip... sigh).  Junior starts his Cyclosporine (which is given to people who have had organ transplants to keep their body from rejecting their new organ... fun fact... and also for people with skin issues) tomorrow, at $200 and change for a 30-day supply, this dog better be making me coffee by the end of the month and delivering it to my bedside!  But seriously, I'm going to shop around and see if that's not just Nantucket pricing. I digress... (I had a professor at FAU that said this religiously and I couldn't wait to start using it in my life - that was over 4 years ago!!!)

Kyle, is usually my backbone and support when issues like this arise.  As many of you know, Kyle has a demeanor about him that I clearly do not possess (and included with that - a filter).  For the most part I'd say it's mostly to do with our entirely different upbringings and because he's from the South.  When "Junior Issues" come up - we are usually able to sit down and bounce ideas and alternatives off one another, and usually with the help of the vet.  I'm more of the "nike" of the relationship where if someone says, "jump!", I said "ok! how high?!", Kyle on the other hand will muddle over it for awhile before he decides if jumping is really that great of a decision.  This is where yin and yang come into play - if you haven't already figured that out.

Yin and yang are used to describe how seemingly opposite forces are interconnected and interdependent in the natural world; and they give rise to each other as they interrelate to one another.  Yin and yang are actually complementary, and not opposing forces, interacting to form a WHOLE greater than either apart.  ((a dynamic system))

Are you following?? Picking up what I'm throwing down?!

So basically - I've been using Facebook and my blog as an outlet to spew my rants and crazy tantrums out because I don't have my yang to help me out (how do I know Kyle is yang you might ask?! Well:  for starters, I know Kyle wouldn't choose black - he would choose white, AND in Chinese philosophy, yang represents light, power, and male).  Funny how things like this make sense, huh?!

Where am I going with this!?

I'd like to let my parents know that I REALLY appreciate them during this time, and all the time!  And by parents I extend that to their spouses as well, Aimee and John!  My mom and dad have put up with my crazy antics for a LONGGGGGGGG time, I mean... I think my mom could argue that I had an opinion at 5mos old and started talking not too long after that - she even admits she knew she was headed for trouble!  And my dad, he ALWAYS answers the phone or calls me whenever I'm having a complete meltdown and doesn't spontaneously find something else to do - just takes it all in.  I don't think I could have gotten any luckier with the parent lottery - seriously, how many people are lucky enough to have TWO great sets of parents! (and at your beck and call from day 1!! hehehe!)

Also, Will and Jake have always been my "if-mom-and-dad-don't-answer" backups... well obviously you guys are more than that to me, but I'm talking 'bout more present stuff with my yang gone.  And also, thanks Will and Jake, for accepting and loving Kyle like he were your own brother - you guys made it really easy for me!

On that note - thanks to my in-laws, for giving me Kyle... without him I don't know where I'd be!  And not just for giving me Kyle, but for being there for me, and us, at all times.  It's hard being so far away, but someday when we're meant to, we'll be closer - I just know it!

Now, before I go all sap-city on my followers, I want to get to another important point.  I started 'blogging' in the first place because I was feeling really motivated to get into the best shape of my life, and pay-off our debts before leaving Nantucket.  In addition to that, Kyle and I figured that it would be a good way for him to know what was going on while he was gone (even though I have written him almost every day)!  Getting in shape has not only made me feel really good, but I really truly hope that I am motivating someone, somewhere, to aim to be better tomorrow than they were today. And also to realize that even if you have a bad day, fall off your diet, don't workout, go online shopping and spend more than you wanted to, that it's okay - but counteract it tomorrow by being 10x better!!

I've realized that I've been a little negative (okay maybe more than a little).  I had a wake-up call tonight, not really sure why, I think I was just feeling like ripping my hair out for the third day straight and realized that it just was not going to help or make the situation better.  Then it dawned on me that I have been creating all this negative energy by being mean to Junior, eating chocolate covered pretzels at work with no regard for having eaten clean ALL DAY, and not feeling motivated to finish my workout tonight.  A lightbulb went on and I realized I have been attracting this negativity! SO... no more negativity... no more careless spending and eating... and only positive, informative, posts on the blog and the FB.

FYI:  I don't go back and delete negative posts on my FB wall or in my blog, it's good to keep that history there to remind yourself of why you are positive in the first place (or of how much of a crazy person you were that day!).

28 more days peeps!!

((watch this HILARIOUS video - this is me and Pippin EVERY morning...))

 

Loggins & Messina "Danny's Song"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4FDcTyyXQb8